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Captivi te Salutant
01:59
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Paralysis
05:52
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A thought occurred, might we live behind bars
Discord dwells within, repression of darkness
Masochistic act of false self-realization
Estrangement from the core, our attempts reduced to a farce
A machine drained of fuel, a motionless apparatus
Stillborn actors on a canvas of a Bollywood-film
Make up covers the face of each of them
Their raised mouth angles have been frozen in an instant
Trapped in a status of crushing bliss
Gray colors vanish in purple mist
Empowerment of competence achieved through their acquired disablement
Show no sadness, strive for a primitive inner
Embrace the profane, empty your mind
And celebrate the tedium, your honesty is not welcome
You shall dance and laugh, a living corpse
Your sensibility shall be reduced to none
Principles are nothing but weight on your legs
Maladjustment gives you a better advance
Handsome is the inscribed grin that purely is bereft of sense
You shall dance and laugh, a living corpse
Quit your cares, your self shall vanish
Don’t be scared, reach perfection by remaining a doll
Compensate a frail attitude with strong expression
Until your cheeks nearly rip by the tension
Be known by no one and accepted by all
Be a part of the dance at this hypocritical masked ball
Known by no one but accepted by all
Stand tight at each other but be worlds apart
Shine bright and depart be a shooting star
Meaningless words in a meaningless world
Show your teeth but to increase sympathy
Take a stance you shouldn’t be hurled
Preach freedom but do not be free
We inflicted paralysis on ourselves
We embraced to live in a self-made hell
Our brokenness will be ignored
but a handsome face does truly sell
A business ruled in which we trade
A faked smile for another
Just to obscure that we are frail
A business ruled by our trade of one faked smile for another
And you shall dance and laugh until you finally break
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Psychotorture
07:21
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Motion is denied as anxiety strikes me
Petrified as my heart beats rapidly
Fear carries desperation since I am unable
To control this state, mind unstable
Can you show me the bright colors that were banned from my sight?
The joyful side of life that was taken by fear’s blight?
You wouldn’t even dare to imagine in how much pain I am right now
Ineffable, this horror to which I have to bow
Shaky hands, shivering body, eyes wide open
Trapped in my head, broken words unspoken
Deranging fear attacking from all sides
Defenseless in plain sight, overrun at first attempt
Sole in these plains of ashy ground
No one is searching for me, ’cause I’m nowhere to be found
All that’s left is a moment of defeat
Losing against an overpowered enemy
A battle that doesn’t even deserve this name
Abandoning my dignity, left with pungent shame
When every noise is a shock
Every shadow is a threat
When you’re even afraid of prevailing
There comes a time you wish you were dead
Palsied tongue, I’m quadriplegic, staring at terror’s antic
My language is barred, my soul is scarred
Motion is denied as anxiety strikes me
Petrified as my heart beats rapidly
Fear carries desperation since I am unable
To control this state, mind unstable
Deranging fear attacking from all sides
Defenseless in plain sight, overrun at first attempt
Sole in these plains of ashy ground
No one is searching for me, ’cause I’m nowhere to be found
All that’s left is a moment of defeat
Losing against an overpowered enemy
A battle that doesn’t even deserve this name
Embracing my shame
Imagine you denied yourself to feel joy
You don’t sense your bliss, even when it hurts
Forbidden to love yourself
Your own prison, your curse
Head slamming against the bars
In chains, the blacksmith is you
The prison guards are your own scars
A stranger you once knew
Madness and hate overcome
Ravaging your cell trying to break free
Crimson scratches at the wall
How did I end up where I don’t want to be?
The battle inside your head
You’re losing, the enemy is you
A part you thought to be dead
A stranger you once knew
The place you made your home
Won’t ever stop to hold you down
Crush the asylum you once built
Its mere existence will get you killed
What if I told you that you’re the creator
Your power unlimited, your will superior
Every brick stone you built, you can make it disappear
One last teardrop and you’ll make the fear stop
I will tear down my home
Fury be my guide
Still welcome to this place
But only if you throw yourself away
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Plethora
07:18
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Cast your boundaries aside
Illusive connections are what make you feel alive
Decide what others can see
You strive to be appreciated by people you have never met
What's your freedom meant to be
The world lies at your feet or vanishes with a swipe
Constant availability of dopamine
Sure there are endless possibilities
Yet seeing them unfold don't you feel lost in this endless sea
Of countless people seemingly never being in misery
Vast lands, unlimited space yet there is no place for you
What's your importance in society
If everything people think is what you make them to believe
Being followed doesn't make you a leader
Engage the algorithms of expandability
One as good as the other but not good enough for you
Since true decisions plant only one seed which takes time to prosper
You prefer a forest though its trees are lacking roots
A lonely captain on a lonely ship
Islands call his name from afar
But his commitment to the ocean makes him feel so unbound
Sea sick he's still in denial for his need of solid ground
A perfect canvas conceals mildew on claustrophobic walls
You're bathing in applause, this drug helps you to deal with your inabilities
Psychedelic trips triggered by surreal visions of a better life
Paradoxical liberties obscure what's within sight
There is a pursue of a virtual engram, an advanced version of yourself
In compulsive fashion you're chasing every thrilling opportunity
Though true interest is null, you just do because you can
And so your fickleness fakes honest self-confidence
As your individuality got lost in the endless sea ages ago
And the trees of the forest threaten to crush your skull by breaking apart
And every new beginning has an expiry date
As particularity suffers from constant availability
And every encounter is just preparing the next
For we do not believe in something like eternity
So we're wearing a mask, a bland face that could be exchanged by any other
As trust is the only thing we don't throw around like staple
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Hiraeth
06:21
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Verschollen, des Willens beraubt, die Stille des Zeitpunkts scheint furchtbar vertraut
Sie ruft nach mir, unaufhörlich
Der Klang ihrer Stimme; abscheulich, verführerisch
Ihr Gewand gleicht Nebel, umgibt es mich in kalter Wärme, die Peripherie verschleiernd
Ihr Körper liegt mir an im einsamen Beischlaf
Heilsam umgarnt sie den Verstand mit nekrophiler Ambition
Mein Hort, mein Halt, mein Heiligtum
Hiraeth
Verloren, verkalkt, contritium anima
Dementiae
Myopisch, beschränkt sie doch meine Sicht
Kein Blick in die Ferne, alles was war und noch sein mag verschwimmt im Nichts
Nur das Jetzt ist präsent, doch scheint es mir trivial
Temporärer Betrug, den Moment verbracht in Teilnahmslosigkeit
Weg des Vergessens, die Schönheit obliegt der Gewohnheit: Jeder Aufstieg birgt den Fall
Die Angst vor dem Scheitern, bedrückende Last, steter Begleiter, Nervengift
Die Stille erdrückend, sie fordert ihren Sold
Ein schwarzes Loch, unendlich dehnt es sich aus, erschreckend, wundervoll
Ergreifend, unbarmherzig
Der Lethargie fröhnend schmiege ich mich an’s Gewand der Stille
Was einst fehlte scheint mir nun konstant
Ich genieße die Gesellschaft, das vertraute Gefühl
Doch reißt sie alles an sich heran
Der Hippocampus gefressen, der Gefühlswelt beraubt
Lass mich fort, ich entsage mich deiner Besessenheit
Ich reiß’ mich los, entrinne
Der Introversion, meinem Rückhalt, dem Rückzug ins Selbst, der Zuflucht, die ich gefunden im verlockenden Schoß der Einsamkeit, der Abkehr, der Stille
Im Kampf gegen die emotionale Anorexie
Fress ich mich voll mit Glück und Erfolg bis ich drohe mich zu erbrechen
Ich nehme es mir woher ich kann, keine Rücksicht
Verluste sind nichtig im Krieg, dies ist ein Überlebenskampf
Verschollen, des Willens beraubt, die Stille des Zeitpunkts scheint furchtbar vertraut
Sie ruft mich Heim, hiraeth
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Sunken
07:16
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Sunken, looking into the deep
Tempting lights flash deep down below
Twisted creatures cursed with immortality
Over decades, caught in darkness
Disfigured faces, unaccustomed forms swim beneath your sight
Leaving traces, seemingly hostile corpses nourished by parts of self-sacrifice
How harmonic, how quiet it’s here in the outcasts’ slum
If you move further on, will you merge with these shades and rest as one?
Will you be part of this silence, deprived of all fears
Floating yards and miles, secrets concealed to magicians and seers
Starving fellowship, but stomachs numb
Empty shells, approximation to the deep sea
No need to surface, pressure comes
And leaves during an adjustment period
This place so cold. Time passes in streams until time is gone
Leaving space for warmth. In darkness, losing identity, becoming one
You’re petrified, a giant squid levitates right above your eyes
How majestic, how bright. Endless spectrum of colors
Embodiment of beauty, seducing sight
Embraces and poisons you with delight
Mindlessly dismembering all that’s around you
Just a part of stream, is that your fortune?
So you fidget and twine, you try to refuse
Just to feel how your strength fades and you succumb to the sea
You succumb to the sea
Tiredly floating up, return to the surface
The sun burns your back and you vomit in pain
Your eyes still bound to the deep
You decompose, left by the pressure you have been used to
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Pathfinder
08:19
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Where nothing grows and no blood flows
A scary dialogue between two souls
Greetings stranger, may I ask what brought this shady veil upon your face?
What? Where did you appear from? I must have drifted while I confessed my disgrace
To yourself? Are you aware your sins don’t mean anything anymore?
Significant they are, I assure you, they infest my core
Tell me what burdens this mind, the name of your plague
I was too weak to endure the hell I went through, the needles pierced my heart unceasingly
It must have been true torture since it caused your will to break
Everyone around me was breathing while I choked on misery
Did you scream for mercy?
No one was there to listen
Have you sought peace within?
There’s either war or void
Summoning your blood?
Laughter was the answer
Blessed be the good samaritan
Who couldn’t understand
Our paths seem to coexist on twin roads separated by time
Do you really think we are of the same kind?
We chose the only way left, embraced the end willingly
I see, so you also drowned in your ineptitude, your distress made you blind
Our kind is not meant to be, ill-equipped we are doomed to fail, so where lies your fault?
So we are purposelessly crawling buried by rubble seeking light but our names won’t ever be called?
You feel guilty for the pain you caused, for those you left behind, but you found your way as they will too
It’s true, I’m the steersman, clay in my wet hands, who are they to judge? If only I could start anew
Did you scream for mercy?
No one was there to listen
Have you sought peace within?
There’s either war or void
Summoning your blood?
Laughter was the answer
Blessed be the good Samaritan
Who couldn’t understand
We share the same fate, now that it’s too late you shouldn’t waste your time on regret
Saying and doing, a sad romance, I’m trying but there’s barbed wire pulled through my head
Introspection, where’s the war? The void still unrelenting
My path led to death but maybe this is my first true beginning
Where nothing grows and no blood flows
A scary dialogue between two souls
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Deceptive Haven
05:55
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Curled up in fetal position, refugee in a chemical womb
Deliverance for the mind which trembled with fear for hours
No need to waste your strength in combat if you don’t care for victory
From within this liquid glass dome you can safely watch your life burn down
My haven awaits, seductive are its calls
As reality transforms into agony resistance falls
Too much to bear, too weak to endure
Fleeing from this self-made hell consuming the cure
How could I make the choice to return from paradise?
Why should I heal my mind while witnessing my own demise?
Numb, deaf, beloved bearer of salvation
Mellow benign insanity, accept my sacrifice
Two evils, eye for an eye, I embrace damnation
The spirit of suffering defeated by the king of lies
Internal cages built to repel the outside
My haven awaits, seductive are its calls
As reality transforms into agony resistance falls
Too much to bear, too weak to endure
Fleeing from this self-made hell consuming the cure
With blinded eyes the pact was sealed, my wounds were healed, the truth revealed
This deceptive place will make you crawl back on your knees
But who would trade a world of peace
For a world of pain and disease?
For a conscious end, where’s the benefit
In experiencing the inevitable when you’re afraid of it?
My haven awaits, seductive are its calls
As reality transforms into agony resistance falls
Too much to bear, too weak to endure
Fleeing from this self-made hell consuming the cure
As the blinding lights dim out the true nature of the false savior becomes apparent
The once shining idol now has a necrotic face reeking of pus and decay
And as I get closer I realize I’m looking into my eyes
Longing for numbness, addicted to ease
Breeding affliction by praying for peace
Dying forever unable to see
That the only savior I get is me
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Moonlight
13:05
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“Take my hand. I will lead you to a world beyond your perception”
The sun kissed the seeds in the fields
The water of seasons gave life to new beginnings
They honor the legacy of god
They thrive in spring
Their love is destined to last forever
It shall never subside
For they cast a smile upon everyone’s face
And the sun helps the moon to shine again
Their love shall never die
As the sun makes the moon shine
And her rays intensify
The emotions of life
Summer has taken place
At dawn, the moon throws calming light
Into the night
The reflection of the her
The sun that makes him bright
What is he without someone who illuminates him?
Their ardor burns the fields
The heat of the moment was induced by fatigue
They are aware of their differences
And they cannot fulfill each others needs
Hurtful words are spoken
Curses not even meant for their enemies
They embarrass themselves
And nearly contribute to blasphemy
As violence has taken place
Behind the curtain, out of the sight of planets
The autumn announces itself through stasis and decay
Meanwhile a beast hides in the woods
Newborn, its hunger gets unbearable
It’s nourished by the rays of the moon
They do not speak
None of their statements are distinct
While the moon is devoured by flames
The sun remains cold and distant
He enrages, fury burns in his veins, he yells:
“You shall honor me as you have promised”
The beast appears and knocks the man out
It rams its claws into the woman’s womb
She screams in agony
And is marked by incurable wounds
Its claws pierce her breast
A stench of lust emerges from its mouth
Its sweat smells quite familiar though
Its weight on her feels like hundreds of pounds
She is a victim of dehumanization
While the beast dehumanized itself
It violates her in uncontrollable rage
For far too long it strove to get
Something that has already been dead
The heat of the sun caused a ravening avalanche
Black clouds covered the sky, blocking the rays of light
She has no strength to radiate
The rock in the surf is now inferior
A feel of numbness pervades her most interior
She falls into a comatose state
Away from this situation of embarrassment and pain
She does not shed tears, as they are in vain
In the rays of the blood moon, the beast awakes
Her cries subside in the lunar eclipse
This moment feels like an eternity
Until she faints, disappearing to another place
Release me from this pain
Regaining her consciousness
She looks into the eyes of her lover
A feeling of disgust comes up, she turns away
He’s shocked for her eyes that once burned like ember
Now lead into a pitch black pit
The cold drew into their bond
In winter they freeze, but they cannot warm
The man looks at her, comprehending the agony she’s undergone
The memories of the beast pervade his mind
He nearly throws up thinking: what have I done?
The sun will never shine again
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Phil: Vocals
Joscha: Guitar
Tjark: Guitar
Sebastian: Bass
Jim: Drums
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